Why did God create crappy ass days?
Like seriously dude... Did You really need to make it so that we have these ranges of emotion coursing through our bodies? Emotion effing sucks. I'm in a rotten ass mood today, and it's Tuesday, which is my new favorite day.
Gah. Motherfucker.
Ok, I feel a tid bit better now......
3.10.2011
I used to be Catholic, anyone else remember those days?
Yesterday was Ash Wednesday, which marks the beginning of Lent. The time where Catholics repent by giving up something as a small sacrifice to God before He kills off His Son Jesus for us. When I was an actual practicing Catholic (and not the Easter and Christmas kind either), I used to give up everything from chewing gum to reading Cosmo. Little, insignificant things that I really could have gone without. Then, when I was a Freshman in college, I gave up coffee.
Sounds like nothing right? Well, let me tell you something about caffeine withdrawal. It fucking sucks. Because I was living on campus, I had a full meal plan, which meant unlimited meals, which meant... unlimited coffee. I went from drinking about five cups a day, to zilch. The headaches were unbelievable, and they lasted for two weeks. I don't usually have migraines, but boy do I know what they feel like now.
After this experience, I decided that Lent wasn't really safe. This wasn't what changed my perspective on religion, it was decided the day I realized the Catholic church hated lesbians, but it did solidify my opinion that Catholicism is really about feeling guilty.
The following is solely the opinion of Eddie:
If there is a God, they don't want us to be unhappy! They want us to fight for what we believe in and be happy with what we have achieved. Let's stop this "they" crap too... God is definitely a woman. A man does not have the sense of detail a woman has, and therefore Earth is definitely created by a woman, or a blast of cosmic energy. I'm still working that one out. Doesn't matter where we come from in this instance, we are here. So let's be happy about it! We don't need to repent our existence because we can't do anything about that! We don't choose how we come into this world, or who we will be when do. We make choices based on a set of morals and values that are just common sense, not God's word (which is written by mankind anyway). We love who we love, not because we choose it, because you cannot help who you fall in love with or when you do it. If we could control our emotions we would be automatons, and this existence would be futile.
Woah, ok... That is quite enough for now. Religion gets me all hot and bothered, and not in the good way. I'll get off my soapbox and let you people get on with your day.
Have a good one. Don't forget to repent! ;)
Yesterday was Ash Wednesday, which marks the beginning of Lent. The time where Catholics repent by giving up something as a small sacrifice to God before He kills off His Son Jesus for us. When I was an actual practicing Catholic (and not the Easter and Christmas kind either), I used to give up everything from chewing gum to reading Cosmo. Little, insignificant things that I really could have gone without. Then, when I was a Freshman in college, I gave up coffee.
Sounds like nothing right? Well, let me tell you something about caffeine withdrawal. It fucking sucks. Because I was living on campus, I had a full meal plan, which meant unlimited meals, which meant... unlimited coffee. I went from drinking about five cups a day, to zilch. The headaches were unbelievable, and they lasted for two weeks. I don't usually have migraines, but boy do I know what they feel like now.
After this experience, I decided that Lent wasn't really safe. This wasn't what changed my perspective on religion, it was decided the day I realized the Catholic church hated lesbians, but it did solidify my opinion that Catholicism is really about feeling guilty.
The following is solely the opinion of Eddie:
If there is a God, they don't want us to be unhappy! They want us to fight for what we believe in and be happy with what we have achieved. Let's stop this "they" crap too... God is definitely a woman. A man does not have the sense of detail a woman has, and therefore Earth is definitely created by a woman, or a blast of cosmic energy. I'm still working that one out. Doesn't matter where we come from in this instance, we are here. So let's be happy about it! We don't need to repent our existence because we can't do anything about that! We don't choose how we come into this world, or who we will be when do. We make choices based on a set of morals and values that are just common sense, not God's word (which is written by mankind anyway). We love who we love, not because we choose it, because you cannot help who you fall in love with or when you do it. If we could control our emotions we would be automatons, and this existence would be futile.
Woah, ok... That is quite enough for now. Religion gets me all hot and bothered, and not in the good way. I'll get off my soapbox and let you people get on with your day.
Have a good one. Don't forget to repent! ;)
3.7.11
Every time I sit down and stare into this blank box of blog despair, I always want to start my posts off with "ROLLER DERBY!!!!!!!" It's not my fault really.... Derby is a full time job with great benefits and high job satisfaction. I think everybody involved in the sport knows what I'm talking about. Lots of derby girls put in their two sense on the topic, like Mathundra Storm from Hellions of Troy last week. I think it's time to list off what my reasons for loving this wonderful sport are....
1) Derby Camaraderie.
I'm talking about sisterhood, bitches. Never in a million years would I had joined a sorority in college. Catty girls getting drunk and making out are not really my style, but derby is essentially a sorority. This isn't a team by team thing either, it's a derby girl thing. Sure, the women on my team are like my big and little sisters now, and that's super awesome but I'm talking about meeting other derby girls... When derby girls get together, every single one of us knows how it feels to get knocked off of our skates, getting the wind knocked out of us, seeing stars, and then how it feels to get right back up and hit that bitch back. I think it's the thing that bonds us together. We show off our battle scars, relive our greatest moments, and yeah sometimes we make out. We don't need greek letters on our chest, secret handshakes (we should look into one though), or dark, devious secret ceremonies to identify ourselves as derby girls. We just know.
2) The Sport
Uhhhh, where the hell else are women going to knock the shit out of other women in high fashion? Cat fighting? Doubtful. In all seriousness, the sport is fantastic. There's high-speeds, checking and blocking, collisions, pile-ups, drafting, hard training, and strategy. Geez, that started to sound a bit like car racing for a second... The training is intense for this sport, and if you're not keepin' up, you're falling back. Roller derby hurts. It hurts your body and your mind. Physically, this is the most demanding sport I've been a part of, and I've been around the "sport block." You learn how much your body can take when you play derby. Just last night we had a free skate night and one of my teammates popped her knee out of its socket. She simply popped it back in place, grabbed an ice pack, and a half hour later she was back on her skates. What a tough bitch. I would have been crying for my daddy in the ambulance if that ever happened to me.
3) Self-Realization
Ask any derby girl who she was before she joined derby, and I guarantee you she will tell you she can't remember. Derby changes women, mostly for the better I think. For me, I became comfortable in my skin. I felt totally accepted for the first time in my life. That for me, is the biggest thing. Many of my friends are straight, with the smattering of lesbian and gay acquaintances and friends. The fact that these women let me open up to them, and let me be the real me, has meant the entire world to me. I have become aware that I am actually good-looking. I know, it seems like a strange self-realization, and it's not because I'm surrounded by ugly people, it really is because finally someone is telling me. I have also become aware of the fact that I am truly an athlete. For someone who has never quad-skated to pick up a pair of skates and in three weeks pass level testing and have their first scrimmage, that's a big fucking deal. Derby has given me confidence. Derby has allowed me to explore myself deeper and walk away a better person.
...I know there's more, but my time is short for today. Thesis action needs to happen!
'Till next time, folks.
3.3.2011
Right now, I am totally thinking about re-naming this blog.
An "average" life was something I had in June when I started this silly little thing. Actually the is that I was drunk for most of June, July, and August... So you should probably not waste your time in looking back at those posts. Even in September my life was unsettlingly ordinary. October is when everything changed... In October, I joined roller derby, and that has changed my "average" life into one of the extraordinary.
I now have a "Batman-esque" daily life... Living as a student during the day, and turning into a kick-ass derby girl at night. I am not only any graduate student, in terms of my department, but I am a thesis student. Foolishly, I may add. On top of those things I am in the most confusing, unsettling, strange situation of a relationship any person has ever been in... It's seriously the thing they make movies out of. I might actually write one about it someday, come to think of it. While it is all of those things, I am the happiest and most settled I have ever been in my entire life.
Since October, I have really become the young woman I was meant to be. I'm an asshole who will get in your face. I'm shy and quiet at times. I'm smart and quick witted. I can debate many things, especially the state of technology education. I sound like I know when I am talking about, even though I may not know anything about it. I can knock someone right off their skates. I am physically strong and my soul is on fire with passion and enthusiasm. I am nothing short of amazing, and I damn well know it now.
I'm not sure who to thank more for this... Me, or roller derby. If I hadn't gotten out of my last relationship when I did, I would have never become who I needed to be. If I hadn't joined roller derby, I would probably be distraught, angry, and fat by now. I met the love of my life, and I've never been happier.
Just thought I would have a moment of narcissism..... Ok, now I'm back to normal. Sorry for the interruption.
An "average" life was something I had in June when I started this silly little thing. Actually the is that I was drunk for most of June, July, and August... So you should probably not waste your time in looking back at those posts. Even in September my life was unsettlingly ordinary. October is when everything changed... In October, I joined roller derby, and that has changed my "average" life into one of the extraordinary.
I now have a "Batman-esque" daily life... Living as a student during the day, and turning into a kick-ass derby girl at night. I am not only any graduate student, in terms of my department, but I am a thesis student. Foolishly, I may add. On top of those things I am in the most confusing, unsettling, strange situation of a relationship any person has ever been in... It's seriously the thing they make movies out of. I might actually write one about it someday, come to think of it. While it is all of those things, I am the happiest and most settled I have ever been in my entire life.
Since October, I have really become the young woman I was meant to be. I'm an asshole who will get in your face. I'm shy and quiet at times. I'm smart and quick witted. I can debate many things, especially the state of technology education. I sound like I know when I am talking about, even though I may not know anything about it. I can knock someone right off their skates. I am physically strong and my soul is on fire with passion and enthusiasm. I am nothing short of amazing, and I damn well know it now.
I'm not sure who to thank more for this... Me, or roller derby. If I hadn't gotten out of my last relationship when I did, I would have never become who I needed to be. If I hadn't joined roller derby, I would probably be distraught, angry, and fat by now. I met the love of my life, and I've never been happier.
Just thought I would have a moment of narcissism..... Ok, now I'm back to normal. Sorry for the interruption.
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