Today is going to be a historical day in the making... Repealing or not repealing "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" is all up to the Senate today. Hopefully, it goes the way I want it to. I've always wanted to be in the Army....
I really would like to find someone at my intellectual and emotional level. I've had a lot of experiences in this life, and there's many more to come, but it seems like either someone is one or the other.... and it's getting damned frustrating. I'm starting to take my foot out of the door, and that's no good.
Halo: Reach is AWESOME! Everyone should grab up a copy and tell me their gamertag so we can shred together.... its rockin'.
I'm not sure I have anything more... Oh, wait I do! I totally made someone's night tonight, and it made me feel damn good... at least something does!
Guy on the Porch (GP): Hey! How have you been?
Laurie (L): Pretty good, yourself?
GP: Good, how's school?
L: Stressful as heck!
GP: Hah, life is stressful!! What are you studying?
L: I'm in education.
GP: Yeah? What level do you wanna teach, like, low or high?
L: Well, I'd like to start off in middle school, and then go to college, they have the same maturity level so I think I'll be ok.
GP: *Falls off his chair laughing* Oh, that's a good one!
GP: *As I'm walking away* Thanks for that one!
L: Anytime!
It put a huge smile on my face. At least I can make one person's day, even if it's not my own.
'Till next time....
9.12.10
Well, here I am again! I'm getting better at posting these things regularly... sort of. hah.
I had a few good friends over this weekend, which was amazingly fun! We had a little party in my one bedroom apartment, and it was a ton of fun! Master Chief loved having people here so much that as soon as they left, he laid in his chair and has been sleeping there ever since! :) Cutie!
So. Big news in this average life is that Halo: Reach comes out tomorrow night!!! I'm stoked! I already have stocked up on 5 hour energy drinks and am all ready to stay up all night tomorrow night! On another topic, my summer is now complete! I have now watched the entire series of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Battlestar Galactica (the new one), Firefly, and Dollhouse! I feel unfortunately accomplished. I am still working on Angel, but it's kinda boring once you've watched shows like Buffy and Dollhouse.... New fave tv show is Covert Affairs with Piper Perabo, she's totally the most beautiful and sexy woman in the world!
In other news... I think I'm coming down with a head cold. Boo. Hopefully, I will have more to talk about next time. Unforunately, I don't have a quirky quote or good tidings to share with you. I will def let you know what I think about Halo: Reach.
'Till then!
I had a few good friends over this weekend, which was amazingly fun! We had a little party in my one bedroom apartment, and it was a ton of fun! Master Chief loved having people here so much that as soon as they left, he laid in his chair and has been sleeping there ever since! :) Cutie!
So. Big news in this average life is that Halo: Reach comes out tomorrow night!!! I'm stoked! I already have stocked up on 5 hour energy drinks and am all ready to stay up all night tomorrow night! On another topic, my summer is now complete! I have now watched the entire series of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Battlestar Galactica (the new one), Firefly, and Dollhouse! I feel unfortunately accomplished. I am still working on Angel, but it's kinda boring once you've watched shows like Buffy and Dollhouse.... New fave tv show is Covert Affairs with Piper Perabo, she's totally the most beautiful and sexy woman in the world!
In other news... I think I'm coming down with a head cold. Boo. Hopefully, I will have more to talk about next time. Unforunately, I don't have a quirky quote or good tidings to share with you. I will def let you know what I think about Halo: Reach.
'Till then!
9.9.10
I wonder if God laughs at our misfortunes, or our situations up there on her throne.
I am ready to move on from my past relationship. Though it is hard to do so, I am struggling through with much help from my friends and my counselor. I am ready to find someone new. This is why God is laughing.
I would call myself a moral, virtuous person. I do have my vices that I do indulge in, but I would overall say that I am good person. I feel genuinely upset whenever I do something wrong. I have friends who, for reasons that I can't contemplate, have an excellent time going from person to person in regards to relationships. Every month, one of my friends is seeing a new guy that she happened to pick up somewhere along the way, put into her bank of potentials, and calls whenever things aren't going her way. She then gets with this guy, and moves on quickly.
I could never live this way. Ever. Even thinking about myself doing that makes me feel terrible. All I want is to meet someone new, and everyone around me is indulging in each other, and it sorta makes me sick. Maybe the fact of the matter is, I'll never find that perfect someone because I'm not willing to do that, just try on a blouse and put it back on rack, so to say. I feel like that's the way people get so damaged.
So, that's why I feel that She's laughing at me.
On another note, I no longer believe that there is someone for me in Oswego.... Just a gut feeling. We will see.
I am ready to move on from my past relationship. Though it is hard to do so, I am struggling through with much help from my friends and my counselor. I am ready to find someone new. This is why God is laughing.
I would call myself a moral, virtuous person. I do have my vices that I do indulge in, but I would overall say that I am good person. I feel genuinely upset whenever I do something wrong. I have friends who, for reasons that I can't contemplate, have an excellent time going from person to person in regards to relationships. Every month, one of my friends is seeing a new guy that she happened to pick up somewhere along the way, put into her bank of potentials, and calls whenever things aren't going her way. She then gets with this guy, and moves on quickly.
I could never live this way. Ever. Even thinking about myself doing that makes me feel terrible. All I want is to meet someone new, and everyone around me is indulging in each other, and it sorta makes me sick. Maybe the fact of the matter is, I'll never find that perfect someone because I'm not willing to do that, just try on a blouse and put it back on rack, so to say. I feel like that's the way people get so damaged.
So, that's why I feel that She's laughing at me.
On another note, I no longer believe that there is someone for me in Oswego.... Just a gut feeling. We will see.
8.26.10
Ten days of isolation. Well, pretty much anyway.
Ever since grad classes ended, I've been practically alone. It's given me a lot of time to reflect on things. Mainly, that I need some serious mental help.
Sure, Abby stayed a few nights, and Aaron came for a few days, and Lindsay has called. Preferably for some reason, I want to be left alone.
I don't know what it is. There are some days when I am fine in my own right, then others where I would absolutely love to have something to live for other than my career.
Maybe that's just it. Maybe God is trying to tell me that I just need to get my feet planted squarely on some solid ground somewhere that isn't Oswego, and then my life can start.
I miss Jo. I miss her so much it breaks my heart. Still. I thought it would pass after two months, but the pain is still there. I go to sleep hoping and praying that the pillows next to me will be her the next night. And that someday she's just gonna walk up those stairs and turn the door handle to our apartment.
But there's a flaw in that dream. A huge flaw. She has always seen me, even in our relationship, as a friend. And that's what she wants back, her best friend.
I loved her, I want that back and not a friendship. So, does that make me a bad person?
I feel guilty every single day that I'm not able to take the friend out of girlfriend, and I wish that my puny excuse for a brain could realize that if I could do just that, I would at least have her back in my life.
But all I can think about it holding her again......
Maybe I should rename this blog, The Life of a Poor Excuse for a Person. Wouldn't that be poetic.
Ever since grad classes ended, I've been practically alone. It's given me a lot of time to reflect on things. Mainly, that I need some serious mental help.
Sure, Abby stayed a few nights, and Aaron came for a few days, and Lindsay has called. Preferably for some reason, I want to be left alone.
I don't know what it is. There are some days when I am fine in my own right, then others where I would absolutely love to have something to live for other than my career.
Maybe that's just it. Maybe God is trying to tell me that I just need to get my feet planted squarely on some solid ground somewhere that isn't Oswego, and then my life can start.
I miss Jo. I miss her so much it breaks my heart. Still. I thought it would pass after two months, but the pain is still there. I go to sleep hoping and praying that the pillows next to me will be her the next night. And that someday she's just gonna walk up those stairs and turn the door handle to our apartment.
But there's a flaw in that dream. A huge flaw. She has always seen me, even in our relationship, as a friend. And that's what she wants back, her best friend.
I loved her, I want that back and not a friendship. So, does that make me a bad person?
I feel guilty every single day that I'm not able to take the friend out of girlfriend, and I wish that my puny excuse for a brain could realize that if I could do just that, I would at least have her back in my life.
But all I can think about it holding her again......
Maybe I should rename this blog, The Life of a Poor Excuse for a Person. Wouldn't that be poetic.
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